Self-sufficing solitude
‘And I was taught to feel—perhaps too much—the self-sufficing power of solitude,’ wrote William Wordsworth. Photo: ©Matthew Smeal
The small beach is new to me, but I will be back. I have anchored here once before but it was summer then and crowded; today, on an overcast late autumnal day, I am alone, save for a small fishing boat some distance off. My own boat drifts languidly in the shallow water, its anchor buried in the sand part way up the narrow beach. I had first dragged my boat onto the sand, but I changed my mind with the falling tide, happy to ease it out rather than risk it being so high and dry that it will be quite an effort to get it back in the water later.
The westerly wind is blowing quite strong, but my little sanctuary faces southeast and is therefore protected. It is quiet here.
My first coffee is poured and waiting; brewed from the freshwater stream cascading over the rocks from above and collecting into a small pool in the sand, before running out in tiny rivulets to the estuary. We miss so much in our usual treated water from our taps. The sweetness and purity from what flows to me can be tasted in the coffee I now sip and in the eager handfuls I cupped to my mouth when filling my coffee pot.
The only sounds are those of water: the splash of water from the cascading spring and the lap of water in the falling tide. An occasional passing boat or plane overhead remind me that humanity is nearby, but the lengthy times in between are mine – mine to dream.
I lie as I am in the light, content in my surroundings. Oh, to be in nature again! To feel the air and coolness on my skin, to hear the sounds of water and to breathe the oxygen-rich air! This is freedom: a beach and alone. ‘And I was taught to feel—perhaps too much—the self-sufficing power of solitude,’* wrote William Wordsworth. It is intoxicating.
I saw a sea eagle on my way out. It was so near the start of my trip that I chose not to stop. I usually see sea eagles so to stop and watch so soon seemed frivolous. I saw it instead as a good omen for the end and the beach I am at tells me I was right – but my binoculars lay beside me at the ready.
The westerly wind has dropped off; but a growing rustle in the surrounding trees tells me it is swinging around to the south. The tide is dead low now and my boat still drifts easily in the shallows. I will have no trouble when I leave – but I don’t want to, I want to stay.
I am brewing another coffee now, more to feel the warmth from my Trangia hiking stove than from necessity, but perhaps too for an excuse to taste coffee made from the sweet stream water again. I have a few water bottles with me; I will fill one with this water and take it home.
A sea eagle flew by, as I knew one would. Perhaps drawn by the smell of coffee and the hint of warmth in the air. I was too slow with my binoculars but there was no real need: it was close. The eagle banked low and eased behind the small point. It was soon out of sight but returned moments later, a second one with it. Like me, the birds seem content. Their day is simple: to live and love, and to hunt when necessary. They just flew over again. I hope to see them once more before I go.
The fresh water intrigues me. I have filled a bottle and placed it in my tinnie. It makes me think of the joy and relief that sailors must have felt when coming ashore on a new land and finding a freshwater spring or stream to fill their empty or stale water casks. Graffiti on the small waterfall’s rockface reminds me of that time. It is not the paint of today, but the names of people and vessels carved carefully into the sandstone. The names are hard to read now, worn away from decades of running water, and any corresponding year is long gone. I know the area was a stopping point for whalers and merchantmen in the 1800s. It is romantic to think that I stand where they once did, thankful for the gift of clean water.
The wind is freshening again, and cold. The grey skies have remained that way and despite my pleasant surrounds, I know it will soon be time to leave. I may try for some fish—to replace what will be my dinner tonight, caught on a previous venture a few bays from here—but I will likely just go. I do hate to leave but I will be bashing into the wind and chop on the way home as it is. The sanctuary of this little cove sustains me, and my memories of today will take me through to next time.
* William Wordsworth, The Two-Part Prelude, second part, lines 76–77. Excerpt taken from The Penguin Book of Romantic Poetry, Penguin Books (2001), p281